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Florine: We thought we had outrun the rat race

We thought we had outrun it.

After years of living on the road –  our whole world packed into a campervan – we imagined we had learned how little we really needed. But when I got pregnant, the rhythm changed. The camper suddenly felt smaller, not wrong, just no longer made for what was coming. So we paused.

Our daughter was born in a temporary rented chalet, a place that was never meant to be forever. It held us gently while we learned how to be three instead of two. How to settle into a life that suddenly felt both fragile and fiercely clear. Outside, the world kept rushing, but inside everything slowed down.

When we finally started searching for something that fit who we were becoming, we weren’t looking for perfect, we were looking for true. That’s how we found the little caravan.

It felt like a promise: a life closer to family, but also like a continuation of what we had learned on the road. Only rooted now instead of moving. An upgrade, not in size – although, a little – or status, but in depth. We wanted to keep the freedom of our travels without slipping back into the quiet pressure of the rat race. To build a life that felt richer without becoming heavier, and to prove – mostly to ourselves, I guess – that growing as a family didn’t have to mean wanting more, only wanting differently.

And at first, it worked.

Mornings began with coffee and gulls. We fixed what was broken instead of replacing it. We learned to reuse, to patch, and to stop fighting the cold and the damp. Our daughter grew up with sunshine in her hair and salt on her cheeks, and it felt like we were finally living the sustainable life we had dreamed about for so long. Rooted, yet free. Slow on purpose. Close in all the ways that matter. Enough.

But the world has long arms.

And of course it got to usreached us anyway. Through screens and social media, through comparison, through the quiet pressure that whispers ‘you could have more, you know.’ More space, more comfort, more certainty. Without noticing, we started planning upgrades, making lists, chasing improvements. Maybe a real house? A higher paying job? The old rhythm of moremoremore slipped back in, disguised as sensible choices.

And suddenly we were busy again. Not with living, but with optimizing life as if it were a project that could be perfected.

Sometimes I sit outside when the wind rattles our (upgraded, yes) caravan and think about how strange it is. We spent a couple of years moving through the world in our van, and somehow it felt easier to live lightly when everything stayed in motion. But as soon as we rooted ourselves, old habits quietly slipped back in. We moved far enough away to hear our own voices again, but apparently not far enough to escape the noise inside our heads.

Sustainability might be less a rule about using less, and more a daily choice: noticing when we start chasing more again, and staying with what already works even while the world keeps offering upgrades.

Tonight the walls creak, our daughter sleeps, and the tide moves in and out without asking anything from us. The caravan is still imperfect. So are we.

And I guess that is the real lesson: a sustainable life isn’t something you build once and arrive at. It’s something you choose again and again, every time you remember that enough is already here.

Florine started out as an art critic, but that turned out to not be quite her thing. So, she did what any sensible person would do - packed her life (and family) into a tiny campervan and roamed the planet for seven years. Now back in the Netherlands, she’s juggling life as a strategic advisor for a Dutch non-profit, while also writing for magazines and platforms. When she’s not typing away, you’ll probably find her treasure-hunting at thrift stores to jazz up her tiny house by the sea. Or wandering outdoors, because apparently sitting still isn’t really her vibe.

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